.----------------------------------------------------------------------------. | ___________ __________ | | | |_____| \ | | | . | | . | | | | :_____| ____| | | | | | | ___|_ : | | | |_____| o |_o________/ o | | |____________| | | | | Really ELiTE Doodz Prezent : | | RED-xxx.TXT aka | | "Leper Messiahs Poetry Corner" | | By : Leper Messiah | : "Better Living Through Stupidity." : . . WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ! For Now............ Slowly the sun begins to set Darkness moves in and smothers the day's last breath until, finally, it has killed it off for now But alas, Darkness does not come alone for it brings fear and hatred with it a fear that is not easily overcome a hatred so great that day dares not shed it's light for now Darkness lives as daylight dies this ageless struggle never ceases light has once again lost to darkness for now...... lm.eden.sabre.kgb ¨ª lm.eden WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ! He Above..... Shiftless, lying undaunted waiting for his prey The serenity of it all is what guides him through the day He sparks his flame hiding his grotesqueness from the light mutilated by the system what a horrid sight Struggling for control He gropes for a sense of reality making no sense what-so-ever his life is a mere parody Everyone's an opponent in this wicked game but he above, above the rest Leper Messiah is his name lm.eden.sabre.kgb ¨ª lm.eden WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ! Amnesia.......... Creeping, smothering Death unbeknownst The sudden changs shatters everything pictures of what was......what could have been Distant memories are all that are left insomnia, tossing, turning, begging for sleep the ease of that of which we take for granted is easily forgotten Darkness comes........eventually.......but not soon enough thoughts rampage like a herd trampling through your mind stumbling, clinging, grasping for reality or something like it Who are you? Who am I? pondering simple things Everyone has an answer but they always seem wrong Try again that was incorrect Suddenly a light........but as quickly as there was light darkness Somehow light forgot about you leaving you to deal with things still unknown..... WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ! Beyond..... forboding creatures wait for you beyond... travel carefully for "things" seek you pressure you from all sides some may attract you... same may entice you... DO NOT give in Temptation.......... you'll go... beyond... you can't.. you will.. you want.. but you CANNOT!! quick wit will not protect you for the beast has it's "ways" dare you travel beyond........ beyond the gates of Terminal Countdown...... lm.eden.sabre ¨199d5 lm.eden WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ! The Chosen..... Lead me to the land of wonders Allow me to fortify my boundaries Beckon me for now For I shall be the chosen Traveling on an endless journey Seems to me, quite uninhabitated Destroy me with your words no more For I know I"m the chosen Deliver yourself from the evils within Come and sell your soul Be admonished of your sins For I've become the chosen lm.eden.sabre.kgb ¨ª lm.eden WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ! Death Bestows..... Death bestows eternal happiness, peace with myself I feel at ease, a calm a wonderful feeling like no other Death bestows Upon me, a pressureless void no needs or wants, not a desire a perfect nothing, deeper into nothingness Death bestows A feeling that I have live only to die leave a small impression on the world then transcend to another dimension Death bestows the way it is and always shall be the eternalness in the end shall never be surpassed Death bestows......... lm.eden.sabre.kgb ¨ª lm.eden WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ! Disposable hero..... Society beckons him to no end they cause for him, remorse and pain as an everyday man, he is only a friend with no gratitude it's hard to sustain To them, he is recyclable Use it for a while then just toss him away Cool, calm, not too excitable His life is of service, and of that it will stay Unlike Clarke Kent, he has no Lois Lane He leads an everyday life, no abnormalities Basically a life of dread, constant disdain He's useful at time, certain informalities This is how he's dying He's dying to survive I don't know what he's made of I would like to be that way Most just beckon him for their needs or wants Then play him off as a zero He lives for danger, does his own stunts Leading the life of a disposable hero lm.eden.sabre.kgb ¨ª lm.eden WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ! Disturbed..... Corruption mostly of the mind of course there's always "the system" Perseverance....to be the richest the smartest, even the most popular for what? what joy do you get? shouldn't we all just be happy with who we are? No! What the hell was I thinking? I must be "disturbed" So I don't step on the people who helped make me what I am today Like you... SO I don't have the money to bribe my way into everything Like you... So what I don't lie, cheat and steal to get ahead in life Like you... And I'm the one you call disturbed? lm.eden.sabre WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ! Failure..... exile.. exile from society nothing is all you have.... all you are.. yet there are certain things about it.. something..... cool maybe..... nah that could never be it. how could it? is it possible? this be something that i can like... that i can respect? but i am so much better then this.... damn. how can it be? nothing at all...... thats all it ever will be..... nothing....... at all thats all you are.. nothing.. for gods sake look at it..... it's FAILURE!!!!! lm.eden.sabre ¨199d5 lm.eden WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ! I thought...... I thought mothers were supposed to love I thought they were always supposed to be there I thought they were supposed to care.... I guess I was wrong. What could be more important then their child? Their own flesh and blood. Nothing can be more important. I guess I was wrong. Nevermind the fact that a mother is the most impotant thing to a child. Shouldn't it be the same way in return? Love, flesh, blood, family....the most important things!!?? I guess I was wrong. "Till death do us part..." is heard at weddings. How often do the children hear that? I always thought that as I grew older, they would care less I guess I was right lm.eden.sabre ¨199d5 lm.eden WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ! LOVE. (uh-oh here i go) Love is stupid sure, it's great in the beginning but it fucks you up the ass royally when it's over it sux dood, i was in love once. for three fucking years it was awesome, all that i ever wanted in life shit she treated me great. she looked fucking incredible she was sweet, a little shy and a virgin :) two months i waited for her to kiss me six months we waited to have sex and i was cool with that. shit before her, it was like a week, no sex, c-ya but i loved her how the fuck could i be in love? I was sixteen and i was engaged to this chick..... well anyway, after time went on, it got a little worse but it was still great. two years into this it was still OK but After that, i was to fucking "in LOVE" to let her go. shit she dogged me never wanted to see me never even called me but i couldn't break it off with her eventually i snagged her cheatin on me i dumped her i cried i fucking cried like a little baby why? SHE cheated on me. fuck man after it was over with her i thought about her everyday and I broke up with her i wanted her back everyday every girl i was with, i SAW tara (the three year relationship chick) I couldn't get "serious" I couldn't LOVE anyone the way i loved her I compared all the girls to her i completely dissed a good good friend of mine (female) she wanted to start a relationship with me i dissed her now, i regret it i lost LOVE i coulda had it but no. to this day, she still sorta has feelings (the second girl i mentioned) i have feelings to but she's in philly and i'm here shit now, i'm in LOVE and i can't have it LOVE sucks ass This wasn't meant to be a LiT at first. but when i posted this so many people responded to it, i decided to go back and cap. lm.eden.sabre ¨199d5 lm.eden WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ! Mental Porn..... Psychadelic Fermentations dripping through the wells of my inner-self colors......WHOA man colors!! Hear the Pretty birdie? Just groovin in my mental state is it a panic? nah just hectic......a solo helter skelter buggin me out fidgety, itchy, paranoid..........did you hear that? What the fuck? Have I gone iNSANE or have i just degredated myself into this acidic trance Just Groovin in my mental state Anxiety, I hear it but you can't Turn yourself on to mental porn or is it just an acidic trance Just Groovin in my mental state lm.eden.sabre.kgb ¨ª lm.eden WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ! Suicide Note..... Friendz, loverz, all who have cared I'd like to take this time to thank you thank you for when some of you actually were there for me thanx for the timez we spent, the laughter shared and conversationz we've had But after a while..............ya'll couldn't deal with the shit..... the shit goin on in my head, heart and soul abandoned, I just felt so alone, solo stranded That'z what finally made me realize that life was no longer worth living I just don't care about anything anymore everything I've ever cared for is gone I'm empty...............just a shell there has got to be more to life then just that..... being just a shell.....but that'z all I am and all I'll ever be so just forget me It truly was a gift that I had what I had when I had it But it is all gone Vanished ¥ Poof ¥ C-ya ¥ Bu-bye So As my final request I as of you this........ Please, do not mourn my loss but Mourn for what I have not yet given to the world I love you all May I forever rest in peace.... lm.eden.sabre.kgb ¨ª lm.eden WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ!WaReZ! Anarchy - 1a: absence of government