______ ______ ______________ | | | | \ | \ / \ / ____ \ ______| | |________| | / \ | |____ | ________ | ( {} ) | _____) /~~~~~~~~~~~ | | | | \____/ | |______ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~\ | |~~~~~~~ / \ / \ / | ~~~~~~~~~| | | | |______| |______| /_____________| | | | | | | | | Hogs of Entropy Text Files Present... | | | | | | | | "A Vampire's Thoughts" | | | | | | | | | | | | By: Vampire | | | | | | \ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ / ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ To me poetry is an expression of the soul. I write poetry to tell how I feel, what I believe, what I fear, and what I like. In my poetry I express my thoughts, feelings, and emotions. When I write poetry - I escape. It's like daydreaming, but it makes it more believable and more real than a dream. This probably sounds nuts, but it keeps me sane. When this world gets to be too much, I just pretend I'm somewhere else, with someone else.. happier... better. Someone can learn a lot about me just by reading my poetry... and that's why I like to write it. Crystal Wine Glass ------------------ i sit at a table with a crystal wine glass filled to the brim with red i stare at the glass and see all my pain and with one drink it would all be gone i can drink from the crystal wine glass filled to the brim with red and end my problems and my pain i can stop the rain the stinging rain from falling if only for awhile i place the crystal wine glass filled to the brim with red against my lips and i can taste the smooth liquid and the desire grows i tilt my head back and with it the glass and i drink away my agony i stare at the crystal wine glass no longer filled to the brim with blood and nothing changes it only gets worse i drink to forget but it makes me remember what i am i pick up the crystal wine glass no longer filled to the brim with blood and smash it against the wall things will never change things can never change it's a never ending cycle if sleeping and feeding my pain my sorrow my problems will never end and they follow me throughout the years so i drink blood out of necessity and desire and as the glass shattered so does my hope hope for a cure hope for a change so i continue to feed i continue to hate i continue to "live" and hope to die They ---- They lie They conspire They cover-up the truth They hide the facts They call it classified They deny it ever happened They watch us They control us They control what we see They control what we know They can not be truted They are the government Alone ----- I walk the streets at night, alone Looking for my prey Soon I will take flight Crossing the sky at night So alone I have longed to find a love For all of the hundreds of years That this creature has prowled the night But now I long for blood I see a victim Way down there I can smell the blood in the air And in a breath I taste it on my lips Now dyed red Will someone help me esca from my hell? Who would love a creature of the night? If I had the strength I would hold a cross up high And watch the sun rise But I am weak and can not do it Oh how I have longed to be mortal again They offered the gift of immortality But they never said at what price There is a lonely sole Walking all alone But there is something about him What is it? I can't anymore! Can someone fall in love in a glimpse? Can I fall in love? A creature without a sole Alive but dead I want a normal life The life I never had a chance to have To go out at day And have fun at night What a cursed life I live But what to do about him? Should I approach him? Can I resist the desire for his blood And instead fall in love? I approach him and try to talk Try to make sense All I can managesay is "hi" I mumble to myself "he will not die" The urges in me are so strong But if I am to escape From my endless night I must fight I'm about to walk away When he asks me to stay Could it be That he can see Deep inside Where the love hides? We talk for awhile And I wonder if I should tell him About my curse What would he say? What would he do? He asks if he can see me in the morn' I tell him I hide from the sunlight I live in the night When the darkness outside Matches the darkness in my heart He seems confused But agrees to make it night And when he leaves I take flight Still hungry But with hope What will happen? No one knows But in the end He will die And I again will be alone Forever to fly Through the night sky Forever to feed Forever indeed Maybe someone will kill me Or maybe I'll have the strength Or maybe I'll remain alone Forever alone So alone Alone China Doll ---------- A China Doll So precious Valuable Delicate And frail So much care Put into them And how fragile They are So easy to crack I am A China Doll Fragile And frail And ready To break I can't take All the pressure All the pain All the rain All the hate All the indifference All the problems Of the world All the problems That I have That I keep Inside So dark and deep So they hide From the light The hurt This China Doll They hurt her a lot The China Doll A scared Little girl With all the problems Of the world In her heart In her mind So much pain So many problems So much Too much And the China Doll Is ready To break Escape ------ Hold me in your arms And never let me go Let me escape Into your arms Escape from what You've asked before I don't know Everything From my family problems The very many problems From the pressures And the pain I know I can't escape forever But just for awhile Escape from judgmental people Escape from hateful people Escape from everything And everyone Except you Escape into your arms And your sweet charm And your flattering ways For at least A couple of days Let me escape Don't ask me why Or from whom Or what Just hold me tight And taay the fright Of the world Hold me and let me escape That's all I ask That's all i want That's all I need Just hold me in your arms And never let me go Let me escape Into your arms You can help me You can hold me Only you Can keep me safe From harm Only you Can help me Escape Paradox ------- U L Love T Hate R Power A Fear Light V Darkness E Truth R Lies T Good I Evil C Birth A Death L Life A Never Ending Cycle Of Paradoxes Reality ------- What is reality? Is this reality? Or are we all characters in this, a crazy play written by someone unknown Or are we just pawns in a never-ending game the player - a mystery Or maybe we are dreamers in someone else's dreams the dreamer - above and beyond Or is what we see what we get and this is our reality - our hell which has been created by us Red Desire ---------- I hide in the shadows in the cover of the night out of sight of all unfortunates who may wander by I prowl the night the land and the sky no one is safe from my savage thirst my desire my need for blood the sweet bitter undescribable taste dangerous and satisfying and how I desire it the smell in the air the taste on my lips dyed red red lips on a pale face with dark hair glowing eyes and dark clothes i live in the night surrounded by black black sky black heart black soul black desire black life red lips my life is black life red lips my life is black and red alive and dead never to die again never to rest always to feed and hunt my prey never to be seen during the day how black is my life the red, burning desire for the red, thick blood my savage thirst will never be satisfied the burning flames of a powerful desire will never be quenched so i prowl the night for all eternity for the undescribable unbelievable high from the taste of blood Till Then My Sweet ------------------ Till death Till life Till whenever we meet again Whenever that may be Whatever year Whatever time Whatever life You may be living Till then My sweet Take care And take my love With you there Why? ---- you put the gun to your head pulled the trigger now you're dead there's a bullet in your brain you've ended all your pain you never cared you never thought of the people you'd leave behind you took the easy way out you didn't even try i won't shed a tear i will not cry you took away your pain and dropped it all on me why did you do it? i'll never know why and yes, I did cry. Out There --------- There's gotta be Someplace Somewhere Better than this There's gotta be Something Out there And i don't want to miss It if there are Human beings So ignorant Arrogant Conceited and Confused With so many problems We don't know what to do So many filled with so much need Others kill out of greed On some distant planet On some distant star Oh so far Away And yet, so close Do you suppose It could all be true? And if it was... What would you do? |=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=| | _____ Call Goat Blowers Anonymous for the LATEST HOE! _____ | | 6/ ^..^ (215) 750 - 0392 ^..^ \9 | | \_____(oo) This Issues Featured Support Board is: (oo)_____/ | | WW WW Ahead of My Time WW WW | | (901) 642 - 9290 | | ...the kings of modern goofiness... | |=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=| Copyright (c) 1994 HoE Publications and Vampire. #57 --> 02/04/95 All rights Reserved.