=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= the rose and the bloodgarden ---------------------------- i often think of myself as a rose, especially when my inner companions sing their sweet hell music softly within the white tissues of my mind. a rose is pure perfection mottled by wicked thorns that jab the tender places. this is what i do. this is who i am. [ 2 of me. & they weep. ] i hurt the ones i love. i have two halves. one is loving, passionate, generous. she is known by her own name, and those who love her are fools. the other side is heartless and cruel. she has no name, but she is in control. bloody words escape from the cage in her mind, and they cut others without mercy. [ white & blood dripping. ] i know others like me. i smile tenderly at them when they describe their inner agony. i offer words of comfort, though the advice i give is hollow. once i received the same advice. ( it will pass, things get better, life is too wonderful to pass up. ) i hated the givers. theirs were lives of beauty and normality. no demons spoke to them of their dreams. no images of violence and hatred disturbed their thoughts. only sweet solace. i wanted to kill them for it. [ 2 roads & i took.. ] i used to find meaning in the words of the great poets. one could say that i am a successful young woman carving her place in a man's world. those who know me are amazed that i am alive. neither understands me. it is just as well. insanity cannot be understood by the sane. tell me, would you dance with the devil if your own choosing? [ bloodgarden ] i live in a bloodgarden, where i can appreciate the beauty of the rose, but i cannot keep myself from pricking my skin on the thorns. for i find more joy in the pain than in the purity. perhaps you are reading these words and cannot understand them. be grateful if this is so. i would be. [ scribbling, bibbling, bibbling, scribbling.. ] mozart - amadeus Palpable Obscure =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = Questions, Comments, Bitches, Ideas, Rants, Death Threats, Submissions = = Mail: jericho@dimensional.com (Mail is welcomed) = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = To receive new issues through mail, mail jericho@dimensional.com with = = "subscribe fuck". If you do not have FTP access and would like back = = issues, send a list of any missing issues and they will be mailed. = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = AnonFTP FTP.DIMENSIONAL.COM/users/jericho/FUCK = = FTP.SEKURITY.ORG/pub/zines/fucked.up.college.kids = = FTP.GIGA.OR.AT/pub/hackers/zines/FUCK = = FTP.ETEXT.ORG/pub/Zines/FUCK = = WWW http://www.dimensional.com/~jericho = = http://www.reps.net/~krypt/fuck.html = = http://www.toptown.com/innercircle/orchid/F.U.C.K/fuck.htm = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= = (c) Copyright. All files copyright by the original author. = =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=