_______________________________________________ _________________ \_ __ \_ \ / \ / \_ \ | __/ ____/ \ | \| | __/ _| |/ / = \| |/ = \| / | ___/_ _ | | | /___ _ \________/___|___\__|_|__/___|___\_____|______/|_| \__|__|\__|_____/|_| ======================== "The name speaks for itself!" ======================== Poetic Rantings http://surf.to/damage_inc damage_inc@disinfo.net =============================================================================== If Only... If only I knew. If only I'd done that. If only things were different. If only I could've done more. If only I'd said that. If only I'd been better. If only I'd been kinder. If only I'd been gentler. If only I were calmer. If only I weren't as mean. If only I were different. If only he loved me. If only I loved him. If only I cared more. If only I weren't indifferent. If only I weren't lazy. If only I weren't complacent. If only I'd stopped them. If only I'd spoken out. If only I'd fought back. If only I didn't allow it to happen. If only I were stronger. If only I had more confidence. If only I had more money. If only I were greedier. If only I weren't so jaded. If only I weren't so bitter. If only I had fewer regrets. If only I hadn't made so many mistakes. If only I didn't worry so much. If only I had charm. If only I had charisma. If only I had a cool car. If only I had less rage. If only I'd learned more. If only I listened more. If only I weren't in a hurry. If only I weren't so fucked up. If only I were more coherent. If only I weren't hated. If only everyone loved me. If only I weren't so chaotic. If only I knew more. If only my family was different. If only I were better. If only I were something. If only things had meaning. If only I were smarter. If only I were thinner. If only I were taller. If only my eyes were blue. If only I were beautiful. If only I were more than I am. If only I had a life... How many more "if only" statements can you think of? How many consume you? Do you obsess over it? How many do you live by? Do you live your lives questioning every move you make and everything that you do and everything that you are? Do you want to live in conformity? Do you want to constantly question whether you measure up to expectations of others, or not? Do you want to worry and fear everything? Do you want to live in the past and regret everything? Do you want to dream and wish everything were different? Can you not accept certain things as they are, get over it, move on, and live with it? Do you see yourself as not being good enough? Stay away from me then... Written by Helena3 / Damage, INC. (C)opyright 2000.