_ | \ | \ | | \ __ | |\ \ __ _____________ _/_/ | | \ \ _/_/ _____________ | ___________ _/_/ | | \ \ _/_/ ___________ | | | _/_/_____ | | > > _/_/_____ | | | | /________/ | | / / /________/ | | | | | | / / | | | | | |/ / | | | | | | / | | | | | / | | | | |_/ | | | | | | | | c o m m u n i c a t i o n s | | | |________________________________________________________________| | |____________________________________________________________________| ...presents... Big Ol' Heaping Pile of Shit by Suicidal Maniac >>> a cDc publication.......1993 <<< -cDc- CULT OF THE DEAD COW -cDc- ____ _ ____ _ ____ _ ____ _ ____ |____digital_media____digital_culture____digital_media____digital_culture____| Disturbed --------- It really makes me think... It really makes me think... It really makes me think... It really makes me... It really makes me... It really makes me want to kill. Why is it that everyone in this society must be tagged? What I really hate is that everybody plays along with all of it. It's so stupid, you're so stupid. I can't understand anything in this world. We work against ourselves. In a world filled with hypocrites, what can one person do? It's me who's trying to figure things out, and it's you who is holding me back. If I can't live in YOUR world, why must I have been brought into it? It should be everybody's world, not YOUR world. Peace is a concept that cannot be defined. AND IT'S BECAUSE OF ASSHOLES LIKE YOU, who pull together with other assholes like yourself to hold us down. You call me insane, but I have another view. But to your eyes my view is of no relevance. You say I'm crazy, perhaps I'm one of the few blessed with sanity while the rest of the world is filled with an enormous amount of hypocritical lying scheming racist conformist two-faced lunatics. Why is it that anyone with a little insight and sense must be dubbed disturbed? Can you justify your actions? I can justify my hate for you, and I just did it, but I suppose it's just another statement from a disturbed youth. Talking to the world is like trying to communicate with a tree and one of these days, I'm going to buy a chainsaw and make some fuckin' firewood. Go to hell. Acid ---- The colors seem brighter My head feels lighter I paint vivid images in my mind I could see them, even if I were blind The images burn As my mind begins to turn The page of the book From that hit of acid I took. My mind is like a story, Filled with love and glory. It's all a fantasy, but it's putting me in ecstasy. The feelings are so kind, those contained in my mind. Hours pass, and my happiness fades As if someone had pulled down the shades. Reality bounces back, I begin to pack. I'm going on a trip, This one much longer, For the hit of acid is much stronger. I hope this one will last It brightens my past. Reality is so much better, When you can alter what you see, And I like things a little wacky. Rain on a sunny day, No bills to pay. Acid, it burns your mind from which many things you will find. You discover yourself, And if you look hard enough... You just may see an elf. This World ---- ----- Oh beautiful planet This world of darkness Our world of corruption This world where sullen and sane are same This world where children are starving, while the rich eat with silver. This world where people Are dying, without help. This world where the government Screws it's people and smiles. I cannot help but wonder What's at the end of the road. Be it life or death, I will not smile. Not in this world. In this world, I am not conscious, I am anti-social. Dying Eyes ----- ---- I look out onto the cold world. I feel time slipping away. I see everything in a blur. I look at the world through dying eyes. All of the arrogant rays tire my vision All of the denied dreams warp my senses All of the hurt & agony ties my mind All of the dark burns my dying eyes Grey ---- Hate Torment Breachment Lies Corruption Life Death Sickness Epidemic Plague Life Alcohol Drugs Overdose Death Life Mental Illness Schizophrenia Manic Depressive Death Life Pain Funeral Wake Death Life Cemetery RIP Death Life War Death Life The curtains close. All the colors turn to grey. Love ---- I'm falling for you I love you Will you marry me? I love you Let's have children Don't leave the toilet seat up Get rid of your tampons I want a divorce. Pulling ------- Single file Stand in line Take a number Wait for it Alphabetical Order Boy - Girl - Boy - Girl Shortest to Tallest Income brackets Pulling your individuality. Mockery ------- He doesn't know what he wants Look he's alone He's awkward He's weird He's ugly He's short He's impotent He's black He's oriental He's got zits He's a mockery. Big Words --- ----- Abatement Abjuration Abhorrence Beatitude Crepehanger Gregarious Focalize Statute Indigenous Witticism Mordacious Kinetic Susceptible Redundant Redundant Metamorphose Juvenescence Juxtapose Happenstance FUCK! At Night -- ----- At night, I vaporize, I slip through the crack in your window. I lay with you under the covers. I feel your every move. I feel your warm breath as you exhale from a sigh. I feel the heat coming from your snatch. I fondle your breasts, but you do not feel it. I molest your body, violate it. Then, I'm gone. At night, I prowl your house while you sleep. I enter your private life. I let the skeletons out of the closet. I roam through your panty drawer. I sense your dishonesty. I sense your falseness. I see through your act. Then, I'm gone. At night, I haunt your dreams. I remind you of your wrongs. I bring pain and agony to your thoughts. I torment your every move. I haunt you with guilt. I post illusions to confuse you. Then, I'm gone. _______ __________________________________________________________________ / _ _ \|Demon Roach Undrgrnd.806/794-4362|Kingdom of Shit.....806/794-1842| ((___)) |Cool Beans!..........510/THE-COOL|Polka AE {PW:KILL}..806/794-4362| [ x x ] |The Alcazar..........401/782-6721|Moody Loners w/Guns.415/221-8608| \ / |The Works............617/861-8976|Finitopia...........916/673-8412| (' ') |ftp - zero.cypher.com in pub/cdc |ftp - ftp.eff.org in pub/cud/cdc| (U) |==================================================================| .ooM |1993 cDc communications by Suicidal Maniac 04/01/93-#227| \_______/|All Rights Drooled Away. SIX GLORIOUS YEARS of cDc|